Caitlyn Jenner & Haters

Jun 06

Recently I did a TV Interview with Shelly Horton of Mama Mia TV on my  Transgender Transition in the 80’s and my thoughts on Caitlyn Jenner.

At the time Caitlyn had not announced her name or her new identity officially but I was already being positive about her journey and what was to come.

The Effect of what Caitlyn Jenner and her very public Transgender Transition to me is bigger than any other Trans person has ever achieved or encountered.

Sure we have had many that have come close like Chaz Bono ( Cher’s son) and many wonderful public Trans people such as Christine Jorgensen, Rene Richards, Laverne Cox and Carmen Carrera just to name a few, but none that have shared their total transition so publicly as Caitlyn Jenner.

She broke twitter records of people following her in a short time on social media  and this just goes to show already to me how her story will help make all Trans People’s Journeys easier through more public acceptance of us as people.

I look forward to a 8 part TV series starting in July called ‘Call me Cait’, as this will show a ‘real’ Caitlyn facing the world and not just the fabulous Caitlyn that we saw in the Glamorous Magazine Spread where she had a team of stylists, make up artists and superb photographers.

I LOVED this magazine spread and thought it was a Fab way to let the world see Caitlyn for the first time as herself. She had much worldwide support and social media was going crazy for days. I stood and applauded along with many of my friends.

But what shocked me was the amount of hate that also came Caitlyn’s way. I expected it from the unintelligent bogans, but what truly surprised me was how many other Trans people were negative about her journey.

I saw many comments  like ‘ She is making a mockery of Trans People’ & ‘She is transitioning too quickly and making it look to easy’

I am saddened at this attitude from Trans people. What happened to supporting each other ? Why would they not see the bigger picture of how this in the long run really will benefit us Trans people as we gain more acceptance from the world.

Have you forgotten that Caitlyn spent all of her life not feeling like she fitted her body but due to circumstances did not transition. Instead she led a hero Olympian life and followed that with a Movie Star Celebrity life whilst all the while hiding the secret of who and what she was. This is not a easy way to live and I am sure she had many moments of darkness over the years.

A Post from a Woman in Transgender Australia

A Post from a Woman in Transgender Australia

She tried to transition in the early 90’s but decided against it and now finally she is living life as she has been wanting to for 5 decades.  Sure she has progressed quickly as a Trans woman but please remember she has been on hormones and hiding it for nearly 2 years now along with small surgery procedures to slowly feminize herself. . Once her tell all interview had aired she had breast surgery and quickly had a facial makeover to be the stunning 65 woman we saw in Vanity Fair Magazine.

I think we should be applauding her for her and the fact that she has progressed so well and not discounting her for the $ she has and the help she is receiving.

For all the benefits she has through her celebrity status there is also just as many negatives of being such a public Transgender Woman. The haters would be overwhelming and its hard enough to transition, without all that extra pressure.

I have been a public Transgender Showgirl all my life and and get my fair share of haters, Ive had old Showgirl colleagues attack me on social media hating on me because of surgery Ive had, or comments Ive made and even just the other day I had an older gay man who’s biggest claim to fame was being a popular barmen in the 80’s called me names in the street, simply because of my high profile, attracting haters.

A Hater’s Post on Social Media about me

But this would be a mere 1% of what Caitlyn would be receiving & as such I now call for all Trans People to support Caitlyn and her journey and stand alongside me as I applaud.

Bring On Caitlyns TV Show

Where as once we had to hide away and live our lives in stealth, things have changed and I hope we can all be proud & loud that we are Transgender & Support each other.

People Hate Me

Aug 23

Its seems that I often annoy people, although I certainly try not to.

I’m not sure why this is, perhaps I am just not a nice person and haven’t realised it yet?

I can be tough, and to survive in this world I have learnt or needed to be on occasions.

I have quite a few old friends that dislike me and often turn quite nasty with me.

I question why this keeps happening.

It’s happened with 3 of my oldest friends, 2 of which were very dear to me. (All Drag Queens)

I’ve moved on and live my life and make peace with the situation.

Good Friends give me reasons why this happens.

Jealousy * Envy * Hate * Growing Apart * Nothing in Common *Unhappiness

There are I assume many reasons.

One of the most common comments they say once they turn nasty is that I am plastic. I have had too much surgery, all of me is fake, I have a plastic vagina etc.

If you really know me I am an open book, I hide nothing of who I am, or what I have done or my physical transformation.

I see their comments as redundant and pointless. Like saying to a black man he has dark skin.

The next comments are I am up myself, No One likes me.  I’m not sure what to think about this.

I have many great friends (Non Drag) that I have known for decades so I know I am loved.

I don’t think I am up myself although people that don’t know the real Penny might think that.

But then it’s that simple they don’t know me, they only see what I want them to see on stage and on social media.

Again I go back to the fact that it’s the Friends that are old Showgirls that hate me with a passion…


Life is Strange, Hate is Strange.

In the last Decade I have lost my both Parents and over 8 family members. One thing I know life is way too short.

I refuse to let these people take any more of my thoughts.

To those people that dislike me, I wish you Love and I hope you find happiness.


My Special Secrets Of Titanic

Apr 15

I hardly ever tell anyone but extremely close friends ‘My Special Secret Of  Titanic’, in fear that I might get scoffed at ..

But on the anniversary of the sinking of Titanic I felt the need to tell my secret..

If you are not believer in extraordinary happenings or past lives, I URGE you not to read on ..

I have had a very colorful life being a TG Showgirl and over the years have been lucky to experience things I never expected too, but I always felt there must be a reason for me and my life’s journey that I was taken on.

As a young boy I hardly ever did anything slightly masculine or remotely boyish, I was a child librarian, sang in the choir, went to dance classes, knitted and generally acted like a girl..

But there was 1 thing I was completly addicted to and that was anything to do with the Titanic .. ( this was long before James Cameron made the ship popular).

I would read book after book on Titanic, had posters on my bedroom and built 1 hobby model after another of the great Ship..

Even as my teenage years came on, Titanic and its posters on my bedroom wall still outnumbered my ABBA posters and that was truly a big deal..

I never really understood my infatuation with her (Titanic) and just enjoyed my love for the story without analyzing it.

Another aspect of my childhood was that I would never let my head be put underwater, whether it was at the beach, in a pool or in the bath, it terrified me, I would go into hysterics if it accidentally happened.

Later in life as I started my journey of the road of a Transgender lady and faced many struggles in changing my gender I often sought spiritual avenues to help me along the way..

One such path was a clairvoyant called Karen who lived in Bondi and only did readings for Gays, Lesbians & Trans-genders as she felt we were more interesting …

In my early years of TG life I often questioned my journey and was it the right path for me, and I thought a ‘reading’ my give me insight to my future, but what I discovered was a revelation to my past..

Karen, read my cards but it was not till she read my jellewery ( a gold ring) that I was left dumbstruck and my childhood made sense.

She told me that I had been a little girl of 6 0r 7 who died on the Titanic, I was in 3rd Class ( Typical) and My Mum and Brother died with me..

Karen went on to say that she felt that I had a bond with the Titanic that was unbreakable and that my life would often revolve around important dates in relation to Titanic.

She then asked had I ever in my past read anything about Titanic and how did I feel about water or being on a boat.

My childhood memories filled me and I suddenly felt like all the pieces of a jigsaw fell into place, my obsessiveness about Titanic, my fear of water and never really feeling safe on a boat..

Karen said that as I travelled through life Titanic and its special dates would still play integral moments in my life..

There are many moments over the years that I can relate my life to dates of the Titanic, my longest lasting relationship was where my BF’s Birthday was the day the Titanic sailed out of Southampton.

One of my very close friends who helped define me in the 90’s, his birthday was the Day the Titanic struck the Iceberg and my eldest brother died the day the Titanic first touched water when it slid out of its dry dock in Belfast.

I am sure if I sat and truly analyzed special moments in my life I would find more historic comparisons but none more that the next secret ..

After many soul searching years of TG life I finally decided to undergo sex reassignment surgery and seeing 2 Doctors decided on DR Howell a Gynecologist in Macquarie St.

After many appointments and 3 years of Psychiatrist therapy I was approved. I was booked into Canterbury Public Hospital for the Surgery March 24th.

I was beside myself with nerves and on the day showed up to the hospital only to be told there had been a major accident and there were no beds.. I was horrified as I had worked up through my nerves..

I saw Dr Howell the next day and requested to go to a Pvt Hospital and that I would find the extra $ as I knew that there, they would not turn me away next time no matter what.

I, without thinking of dates as I was so in the head space of my surgery checked into Double Bay Pvt Hospital 12th April ( The day Titanic Sailed out of Ireland on her Maiden Voyage ) and on the 14th April had my Surgery ( The day Titanic hit the Iceberg) and came out of the anesthetic on the 15th April ( The day Titanic Sunk).

Of course at the time I was oblivious to these coincidences but a few months after my surgery I went back to Karen the Clairvoyant now that my TG Journey was complete and had a new reading ..

She then reminded me of the dates and Titanic and told me that this was my soul finally finding the Women’s body I was meant to be in and  transforming on the dates was no coincidence, this was how  it was meant to be..

I was dumdfounded and still feel quite erie when I tell story..

I am sure there will be some of you that will be laughing, scoffing or will be disbelievers but this is my life, and it makes sense to me in every fiber of my being ..

Its My Special Secret Of The Titanic.